The Bus route…monginis…cyber café…tuition…PCO…a long walk…and the old memories flash…even more…
I know what you are thinking, ‘Short Term Memory loss’…it’s not that…but I take a part of the phrase, ‘Loss’…
Folks, I don’t know how to start this small write up…but all I could remember…someone…a very special person. It all started in the year 2004. but memories are still very fresh…can even feel the boos bums that I had when ever I used to see her coming for the tuitions, walking up the stairs…what a wait…indeed waited for that wait. The wait was just for about fifteen minutes…sometimes I used to arrive at the tuition much earlier than the class…just wanted to enjoy the waiting time…as the journey is much more enjoyable than the destiny. Then all of a sudden I could hear some footsteps, walking…but…its not her footsteps…don’t know how…but could make the difference of her footsteps from others…
It was about five minutes to the tuition time…the FOOTSTEPS…oh man! All of a sudden breathing rate is higher; an electrifying feeling…boos bums…there she comes…but at that moment, a sunk feeling…what after the tuition and she leaves for home…
In the class she used to sit, at a fixed particular seat, a corner first bench seat…I could have taken the seat next to her, but again had other plans…shall brief you about it later…
In the class I always tried to be very much attentive and hoped that she dint get the concept…had the wish and the intention of explaining her, the concept…after the class, not in the class…as I could spend more time, post tuition, over phone! That’s why I dint seat beside her…coz if I had, then she would have asked for the explanation from me at that time itself, thus reducing the time of togetherness. Sometimes I used to play pranks and give her some just too hard problems to solve…again when she used to ask me for the explanations…and I loved to give!
Can still remember the way, I took her contact number…that was fun, and would like to share it with u all…our tuition batch was of less strength, around 10-11. I dint have a cell at that time. So, what I did, brought a small telephone diary, and asked all the batch mates to get their contact numbers penned down in case of necessity…and got her number without a talk! I was least bothered with others number…but thing is that, still have a small writing by her, in her hands, in my diary…and guess what, I still have it! In this way, our friendship grew and never came to know, when it grew much more…never thought of!
After the tuitions, we used return together, till a destination, where upon I had to change my route. But the thing is that, I had a direct bus route from the tuition, but never availed it! We alternately used to purchase tickets for each other. After getting down from the bus, used to see off her, and used to wait at the bus stop till the time the bus was in my vicinity.
This was something that happened for at least thrice a week.
There were plenty of other incidences, which I did at that time without thinking whether it was judicious for me to do it! Making calls to her everyday from home was not possible for me, so used to go to PCO and make calls at least twice daily and for about half and hour to quarter an hour. I dint think much about what she used to think when I used to make calls form the PCO, but now I can make that the calls were like some kind of vibes! Now the question that’ arises, how come I could get so much of money everyday to make calls. I used to get a daily allowance for food, which I used to save, for these moments.
One day, we went to a cyber café…An E-Card from her for HOLI! That was a very happy day for me, coz that’s my first E-Card, and that too from her! That day itself she told me in the café how to use a yahoo messenger, so after that I became a net freak, the reason quite obvious, we both online!
Hmmm, oh, how can I forget that day! One day, I arrived at the tuition early just to see that the class has been called off…and that she too arrived early. So, from there we took a long walk, may be about an hour, down the lane…after that we took an auto from there, she sitting beside me, she holding the upper metal bar, and the wind gushing in…letting her hair fall on my face…that was the best part of the journey, no doubt.
This all continued till March 2005, when I conveyed her my feelings, I was totally confused, how to tell her, never did I tell anybody like that before, I don’t even remember how I conveyed, but all I can remember is that, it was very messy!…And guess what’s the best part, she dint have the same feeling which I had, and it took her about a week to tell me that! I dint ask her why neither did enforce her…coz I respect her feelings…but the loneliness after that was just immense, beyond tolerable, may be I was very immature…may be my proposal was not upto the mark…..
After that I reduced all the sort of contacts….Phone calls reduced drastically…but I failed to understand that reducing all sort of contacts has nothing to do with all the memories that we had, coudnt erase it from mind…its 2009...still cant forget her and the time we spent together, the chocolate cup cake that we had together at the monginis, the walk through a small playing ground that we used to take while returning, the calls that I used make when ever she was late for the tuitions…was just crazy to hear her voice over phone…every year I thought of NOT wishing her on her b’day, made promises to myself, but don’t know what happens, I make the class at twelve in the night, no matter where I am, this year too made the call while I was in a movie hall for a late night show… Sometimes I prefer to stay alone, totally alone looking at the past…Make blank calls just to hear her voice…its still the same…and makes me crazy!
Just want to convey a simple message…Miss you lady and Love u a lot!
